just reached home, and i'm typing away. haha i'm addicted i think to my blog. anyway i chao kenged today. was supposed to run 15km.. but i went the 10km route anyway.
it was fast, cos we talked cock all the way. shows u that when ur mind is distracted enough, u can make the pain go away! =)))
hmmm cmon cmon, i'm waiting to ord.. next yr 29MAY2006! haha it's going to be the best day of my life.
Friday, August 12, 2005
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Cheer UP Seraphine! =)
Hmmm I know u'll come back to read my blog again! haha blame this feeling on my ego.. anyway, As are all that should matter to you now. Afterall, how do u want to enter uni with me if u dun hav gd grades? Go get ur gd grades and we'll walk into uni tgt la ok? forget about other things now.. u said it urself ok, things will be peaceful for now.. just remember u need gd grades and that's enough to motivate u. I hope!
Can we do without this thing called Love?
What is it about love that makes us so irrational, do things we won't usually do?
What is it about love that makes us keep reliving days gone by?
What is it about love that makes us unable to forget and to blank out the past?
What is it about love that makes us wish and wish for the One to always be by your side?
What is it about love that makes us forgive and accept faults?
What is it about love that makes us want to show our best side to them?
What is it about love that makes us feel oh so jealous at the slightest chance?
What is it about love that makes us feel so contented, so blissful?
What is it about love that makes us want to care for a person forever?
What is it about love that makes us unable to let go of memories of the past?
What is it about love that makes us never give up the feeling that we could be together again?
What is it about love that makes us change our ways?
What is it about love that makes us keep reliving days gone by?
What is it about love that makes us unable to forget and to blank out the past?
What is it about love that makes us wish and wish for the One to always be by your side?
What is it about love that makes us forgive and accept faults?
What is it about love that makes us want to show our best side to them?
What is it about love that makes us feel oh so jealous at the slightest chance?
What is it about love that makes us feel so contented, so blissful?
What is it about love that makes us want to care for a person forever?
What is it about love that makes us unable to let go of memories of the past?
What is it about love that makes us never give up the feeling that we could be together again?
What is it about love that makes us change our ways?
I have this many questions! Anyone wants to help me answer them?
Marina South NDP carnival
LoOk! The show begins...
Pretty Shapes n sizes...
Applause all round...
Finale... Beautiful!
These photos were taken by me during duty at marina south... It was good while it lasted.
Have u ever wished that you could watch this display of fireworks with ur loved ones? At that very moment, i wished for it. Felt a kind of emptiness within me. A feeling of detachment away from the crowd, and for that moment i was away in my own world.
Sunday, August 07, 2005
hahahah went out with wai hong e short legged
this afternoon at ard 4pm me n wai hong met in yishun park to go cycling together. i had no bike so had to go borrow one frm jw. thks dude! my fav cousin! hahaha
then we rode the whole circumference of Yishun. haha not really sure bout e circumference thing. but it sure feels lk it.. we really rode all the way until the expressway i think. then finding nth else to do.. we went back to yishun park to try the slopes. I like speeding...
ok nth really special right?? then came this joke of the yr! haha tt wai hong tried to go down this flight of stairs on his bike.. but his feet couldnt touch the stairs at all, so he sort of bumped down all the way and was not able to stop himself! heh but nth happened to him la.. just that his face came to bout .60m away frm the ground while still on his bike. cool stunt... heh I laughed out loud for the first time in months. this crazy but damn nice fren.. cool, lets do it again! haha
oh ya, we played pool too... i lost Every single game. tough luck. But i'll try again.
btw pple if u do go to marina south tml for the National Day Countdown, do give me a call! i'll try meet u pple there. but i'll be on duty so cant do much.. anyway for those ga-ga over fireworks, pls pls pls go! its 20 over minutes worth of eye poping fireworks display.. its definitely worth ur trip there. Plus i'll be there too! haha yea i know.. gary bhb.. gary show off.. no la! its my own brand of sarcasm ok.. i'm actually being humble here...
tk care pple and a very very happy Birthday to this wonderful nation.
Shit, I just remembered something. I'll be spending National Day in camp... ... bloody bloody hell sob... ...
then we rode the whole circumference of Yishun. haha not really sure bout e circumference thing. but it sure feels lk it.. we really rode all the way until the expressway i think. then finding nth else to do.. we went back to yishun park to try the slopes. I like speeding...
ok nth really special right?? then came this joke of the yr! haha tt wai hong tried to go down this flight of stairs on his bike.. but his feet couldnt touch the stairs at all, so he sort of bumped down all the way and was not able to stop himself! heh but nth happened to him la.. just that his face came to bout .60m away frm the ground while still on his bike. cool stunt... heh I laughed out loud for the first time in months. this crazy but damn nice fren.. cool, lets do it again! haha
oh ya, we played pool too... i lost Every single game. tough luck. But i'll try again.
btw pple if u do go to marina south tml for the National Day Countdown, do give me a call! i'll try meet u pple there. but i'll be on duty so cant do much.. anyway for those ga-ga over fireworks, pls pls pls go! its 20 over minutes worth of eye poping fireworks display.. its definitely worth ur trip there. Plus i'll be there too! haha yea i know.. gary bhb.. gary show off.. no la! its my own brand of sarcasm ok.. i'm actually being humble here...
tk care pple and a very very happy Birthday to this wonderful nation.
Shit, I just remembered something. I'll be spending National Day in camp... ... bloody bloody hell sob... ...
BorinG day.. so some recollections of my jc life
Am i at home now? haha feels unreal u know. being at home is lk so blissful to me. I'm more of a homebody. This i realised only after i entered the army.
In e past, during my jc period, it was crazy. we pon school left right up down. I still rmb how in aj, we could only leave school after 1230 right? haha so me, wai hong, sihan and sometimes Hutt will go out to play. School was nv impt nor fun at tt time. Hmmm But I din forget another guy! HON BOON! he's part of our clique too but he never did pon classes at all! you hardworking ass!
oh ya back to the 1230 part, u know u cant go out b4 1230.. so what did we do? haha we went to the computer rm n surfed the net, playing games with each other online. Monopoly was a fav then! haha we'll be lk sitting opposite each other in the rm and then trying to bargain with each other to get a better trade!
i REALLY miss those days.. wow... it seems only lk yesterday when i made fun and irritated the hell out of them throughout the day.
actually me n wai hong were the worse among this grp of friends. we were forever in the comp lab.. haha whenever there were any lectures i'll say to him "wei! let's go for computing lah" haha n then usually he'll go. but sometimes i hav to drag him along too heh that guy obviously wanted to attend Proper Lectures at times. BUT it was for the pretty girls in the lecture theatre instead!
u know a lecture is pretty boring when u see heads bobbing up n down, and when this happens people start finding ways to amuse themselves. haha well, i was one of them.
wai hong was the target. heh heh.. my clique used to go swimming after lessons so we'll usually bring along our swimming stuff. heh i knew that guy brought along his sorta colorful trunks for that day... so during this particularly boring lecture, i took out his trunks and threw it to another of my fren.. HAHA! oh man, it was great! we played 'monkey' with his trunks! haha i wondered how many times his black trunks with blue, red and yellow motifs flew over his Head. all this while, the lecture was going on.. cept that pple were beginning to notice my class fooling ard at the back. =))) my idea of fun! i take full credits for the laughter we managed to generate that day!
Do i feel guilty?? haha sometimes lah. But wai hong is a great guy man. He never really gets angry thou i kept teasing him bout everything. we had great fun.. my best bud in jc.
What About GIRLS? haha i did have crushes ok! but nth seemed to work out after my brief but real sweet relationship with Anne (her nick? Anlene - Good for your bones ;> hahaz!) whom i met in nyjc when i was there for the first 3 months. haha those 3 months were havoc la, much much worse then when i was in AJC. Wont say much bout it now, but when i get into the mood.. words will spill forth frm my mouth lk the niagara falls!
Those days were actually very good. i was handsome, dashing and attracted scores of swooning girls. hahaha i told you it helps builds up my confidence!! so stop trying to figure out whether its true or not!
anyway me n my grp of 5 frens went everywhere together in jc.. we'll alert each other whenever any pretty girls walked past us ;> we were practically daring each other to confess to our crushes! sihan did confess to grace... i think so! but nth happened, sianz!
So u see.. I'm not such a boring person afterall.. its just that army made me grow up maybe just this little bit, i learnt to treasure my time at home. shopping centres, orchard rd, all these places are fun too to me. But i will still choose home over all these. Nothing beats being in the comfort of my home. =)
In e past, during my jc period, it was crazy. we pon school left right up down. I still rmb how in aj, we could only leave school after 1230 right? haha so me, wai hong, sihan and sometimes Hutt will go out to play. School was nv impt nor fun at tt time. Hmmm But I din forget another guy! HON BOON! he's part of our clique too but he never did pon classes at all! you hardworking ass!
oh ya back to the 1230 part, u know u cant go out b4 1230.. so what did we do? haha we went to the computer rm n surfed the net, playing games with each other online. Monopoly was a fav then! haha we'll be lk sitting opposite each other in the rm and then trying to bargain with each other to get a better trade!
i REALLY miss those days.. wow... it seems only lk yesterday when i made fun and irritated the hell out of them throughout the day.
actually me n wai hong were the worse among this grp of friends. we were forever in the comp lab.. haha whenever there were any lectures i'll say to him "wei! let's go for computing lah" haha n then usually he'll go. but sometimes i hav to drag him along too heh that guy obviously wanted to attend Proper Lectures at times. BUT it was for the pretty girls in the lecture theatre instead!
u know a lecture is pretty boring when u see heads bobbing up n down, and when this happens people start finding ways to amuse themselves. haha well, i was one of them.
wai hong was the target. heh heh.. my clique used to go swimming after lessons so we'll usually bring along our swimming stuff. heh i knew that guy brought along his sorta colorful trunks for that day... so during this particularly boring lecture, i took out his trunks and threw it to another of my fren.. HAHA! oh man, it was great! we played 'monkey' with his trunks! haha i wondered how many times his black trunks with blue, red and yellow motifs flew over his Head. all this while, the lecture was going on.. cept that pple were beginning to notice my class fooling ard at the back. =))) my idea of fun! i take full credits for the laughter we managed to generate that day!
Do i feel guilty?? haha sometimes lah. But wai hong is a great guy man. He never really gets angry thou i kept teasing him bout everything. we had great fun.. my best bud in jc.
What About GIRLS? haha i did have crushes ok! but nth seemed to work out after my brief but real sweet relationship with Anne (her nick? Anlene - Good for your bones ;> hahaz!) whom i met in nyjc when i was there for the first 3 months. haha those 3 months were havoc la, much much worse then when i was in AJC. Wont say much bout it now, but when i get into the mood.. words will spill forth frm my mouth lk the niagara falls!
Those days were actually very good. i was handsome, dashing and attracted scores of swooning girls. hahaha i told you it helps builds up my confidence!! so stop trying to figure out whether its true or not!
anyway me n my grp of 5 frens went everywhere together in jc.. we'll alert each other whenever any pretty girls walked past us ;> we were practically daring each other to confess to our crushes! sihan did confess to grace... i think so! but nth happened, sianz!
So u see.. I'm not such a boring person afterall.. its just that army made me grow up maybe just this little bit, i learnt to treasure my time at home. shopping centres, orchard rd, all these places are fun too to me. But i will still choose home over all these. Nothing beats being in the comfort of my home. =)
Friday, August 05, 2005
Singapore's NDP & a Poem
Hey guys there'll be a National Day Carnival at Marina South from tomorrow to 14th of Aug this month. And.. it concerns me! haha cos i'll be there on duty on next mon and the day after National Day.
it should be fun for u guys. hope it's fun for me too!
anyway i just want to have fun u know. forget certain things and then have fun again!
i wanna go overseas soon.. but where?? any comments?? not too faraway cos i have no money.. i'm just a poor nsf serving this nation. =(
ok suddenly i have this urge to write.. i HAVE to let it all out..
Thank you Karin, this poem's for ya =)
Without you, i might have remained lost. But for now, with the guiding hand of our friendship, I have reached my shore. haha, you always seem to be there for me. So for any problems u have, find me!
I should add that for all those who are down, Dont despair. There are others who are worse off than you are. Don't pity them please. Go help them!! Kare and concern will only make this a better place for us.
Start with ur family and friends. You'll be surprised how much love u'll receive just by showing some care and concern.
it should be fun for u guys. hope it's fun for me too!
anyway i just want to have fun u know. forget certain things and then have fun again!
i wanna go overseas soon.. but where?? any comments?? not too faraway cos i have no money.. i'm just a poor nsf serving this nation. =(
ok suddenly i have this urge to write.. i HAVE to let it all out..
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Captain of his Ship
Splashes of darkness fills my night,
as i wondered about what might be.
This inevitable feeling of helplessness,
comes when you know all is gone,
like the captain of a sinking ship.
When the cause is lost,
Do we turn back to the past?
And ignore what history has taught us?
Gone are the days when she sailed proudly as can be,
the long nights out,
in the unfeeling sea,
has made this once haughty lady,
a painful sight to bear.
Why didn't the Captain do his job?
To keep her afloat, to let her shine?
He had tried, in his own simple, soft ways.
Alas, he was only a man, with faults and all.
No matter how hard he went about fixing the holes,
He never knew what really was needed.
She was beautiful.
Smoothly cutting through the waves on the ocean,
gliding gracefully into the setting Sun,
So gracefully we never knew this would come.
The Waves lash out,
like a madman on the loose.
The Wind blew,
with a vengeance that was never seen.
What could keep this beautiful lady afloat?
The captain thought and started to panic.
Then, he realised it was no use,
she wasn't listening,
she would be gone.
Soon.
Would he go down with her,
or bail out with hopes for the future?
He didn't know,
for when one comes to a crossroad,
it's never easy to choose left or right.
Then, he woke up to the Sun.
Light was breaking through the darkness that surrounded him,
giving him the warmth,
out in this lonely, cold Ocean.
Where he was stranded in,
without his lovely ship.
The Sun gave him hope,
gave him the strength to carry on.
To fight this terrible monster that came from within,
threathening to strip him of his energy,
and his Life.
With this,
the Captain tried his Best,
to escape the swirling ocean,
tossing him around like he was without weight ,
And ignoring the dreadful coldness slowly seeping into his soul.
He swam for shore.
---
Captain of his Ship
Splashes of darkness fills my night,
as i wondered about what might be.
This inevitable feeling of helplessness,
comes when you know all is gone,
like the captain of a sinking ship.
When the cause is lost,
Do we turn back to the past?
And ignore what history has taught us?
Gone are the days when she sailed proudly as can be,
the long nights out,
in the unfeeling sea,
has made this once haughty lady,
a painful sight to bear.
Why didn't the Captain do his job?
To keep her afloat, to let her shine?
He had tried, in his own simple, soft ways.
Alas, he was only a man, with faults and all.
No matter how hard he went about fixing the holes,
He never knew what really was needed.
She was beautiful.
Smoothly cutting through the waves on the ocean,
gliding gracefully into the setting Sun,
So gracefully we never knew this would come.
The Waves lash out,
like a madman on the loose.
The Wind blew,
with a vengeance that was never seen.
What could keep this beautiful lady afloat?
The captain thought and started to panic.
Then, he realised it was no use,
she wasn't listening,
she would be gone.
Soon.
Would he go down with her,
or bail out with hopes for the future?
He didn't know,
for when one comes to a crossroad,
it's never easy to choose left or right.
Then, he woke up to the Sun.
Light was breaking through the darkness that surrounded him,
giving him the warmth,
out in this lonely, cold Ocean.
Where he was stranded in,
without his lovely ship.
The Sun gave him hope,
gave him the strength to carry on.
To fight this terrible monster that came from within,
threathening to strip him of his energy,
and his Life.
With this,
the Captain tried his Best,
to escape the swirling ocean,
tossing him around like he was without weight ,
And ignoring the dreadful coldness slowly seeping into his soul.
He swam for shore.
---
Thank you Karin, this poem's for ya =)
Without you, i might have remained lost. But for now, with the guiding hand of our friendship, I have reached my shore. haha, you always seem to be there for me. So for any problems u have, find me!
I should add that for all those who are down, Dont despair. There are others who are worse off than you are. Don't pity them please. Go help them!! Kare and concern will only make this a better place for us.
Start with ur family and friends. You'll be surprised how much love u'll receive just by showing some care and concern.
Thursday, August 04, 2005
Just came back frm camp..
i dont want to complain, but army life sucks! i get picked on, scolded for things others wouldnt be scolded for, and i get MORE duties! yea, u hav to bootlick, hav special connections or maybe be totally hardworking to have an easier time.
totally stressed out with not making any mistakes cos i know if i do, i'll get double the scolding? haha anyway, sim told me its 9 more months! haha bro, u know the casio watch i hav? i use it to count the number of DAYS left in the army man.
hmmm, guess i better live life happily, even ogres (SHREK) can live happily ever after so why not me?? i lk shrek, he's ugly, smelly and he doesnt give 2 hoot bout pple ard him. haha but he found fiona after all right? such a sweet story... of cos im not lk shrek, im the opposite of him! handsome, sweet smelling and im such a considerate fellow..
erm.. such proclamations Do help raise my morale u know... so bear with me.. heh
hmmm ying knows bout my blog now, so i guess she'll read it religiously evryday? haha i wish. anyway, i read her blog and that guy that gave her a birthday surprise really surprised me too.. good to know that the guy is serious bout her.. well, as jealous as i Might be, gotta admit he's 1 notch higher up in the romantic quotient as compared to yours truly. =(
BUT
its OK. I'm Fine. haha really... life goes on, girls come and go... though not as easily as i wish. ;) army life restricts ur social activity. I burn on average 2 to 3 weekends a month ok. what's burn?? it means i hav duties on weekends! cool right? staying in camp on a bright sunny sat or sunday morn! makes my heart so warm, so nice... NOT!
hmmm, ok gotta mention a special fren of mine. And that's Karin =) haha i feel she's a strong person on the outside.. but inside, well she's lk all other girls. and some 'soft' guys too. she's caring, pretty, smart and nice haha.. oh i see some fingers pointing... but No, I'm not in love with this lass. she's a special fren thats all =))
oh another lady im proud to introduce here is the 24/7 mouth-cant-stop-talking Charlene.. heh well, she's not as cute as charlene choi.. but shes somewhere there la. always noisy, a little ignorant of certain facts in life.. haha she knows what i mean.. look she's up there in my blog.. her makeover photo! but erm haha i don't see much difference. okok, maybe a little improvement here and there.. i just dont wanna get beaten up.
life aint gd at the moment, but i'll learn and learn and learn how to let go, to know what's really true love and of cos to cherish those beside me now. u really never never know what might happen in the future. as for me, 1 thing i'm gonna start doing now is not to tell lies if i can help it. haha im a lousy liar u know, but some of my lies are passable. but what i want now is no more lies for me! as for my close frens i dun want lies too ok? promise me tt, and i'll be a happy man..
jokes aside lets pray for zero terrorist incidents in singapore.. cmon, cmon, better pray. i might be one of the first few to go if such a thing happen. afterall im in the EOD (explosive ordnance disposal) unit. haha sad but true.. pray for singapore's safety then!
Monday, August 01, 2005
i lk short hair.. but is this too short? haha anyway, i'm writing again.
But there's a difference this time ard, and that's i'm gonna let pple look into my blog.
In the past, i used to guard this blog lk crazy, treating it as my personal space. No more. It's open! It's free for all! haha
Look back into my past, see how i felt b4. Sad things happened yrs back and also recently. But I'll move on. Afterall, we find it easier to walk ahead right? No point trying to force ourselves to walk backwards again..
Ying, if u read DO read this, tell me ok.. btw i saw ur blog too, it's nice =)
Thursday, July 31, 2003
Thursday, June 05, 2003
hihiz! im back haha.. mmm went out with rz but den it turned out not ok... she was lk always toking bout herself.... told me bout how many boys gave her what present and so on.. im lk quite speechless at how bhb some pple can get.. to think tt i had a crush on her..
actualli i told her i had a crush on her.. but den after i went out alone with her.. i realised tt she's defintely not the on e i wanna be with! haha someone lk zz's character wuld be more suitable. well hock chye and now hav sth in common. we USED to like the same gurl haha!
SAT and chinese a level coming up these few days.. i wanna try my best... really..
oh and bout the class outing with ny frens.. well i hope lots of them will turn out.. quite a simple wish really.. maybe bruce might hear me! hahah if he's still being God.
actualli i told her i had a crush on her.. but den after i went out alone with her.. i realised tt she's defintely not the on e i wanna be with! haha someone lk zz's character wuld be more suitable. well hock chye and now hav sth in common. we USED to like the same gurl haha!
SAT and chinese a level coming up these few days.. i wanna try my best... really..
oh and bout the class outing with ny frens.. well i hope lots of them will turn out.. quite a simple wish really.. maybe bruce might hear me! hahah if he's still being God.
Thursday, May 08, 2003
syf ended yesterdae.. my band got a silver
tot tt b4 i wuld hav been happy wif a silver but really deep down i wanted a gold.. a gold! mmm i was disappointed but din really show it.. but im actualli happy for nj for getting to the top5 well my band members dun really feel tt way hahah cos all of us believe tt nj din deserve it at all anway im stil happy for nj
i hav this crush now on a ger.. cant write down cos charmaine knows my blogsite addy! ahha but yea.. i'll try to win over her and den see how...
din feel well this morning.. maybe cos im tired or stil disapointed
but yea anne got a gold hahah tt's very gold.. mmm hope she do as well in her A level.
i better start praying mann... hav two tests this sat! no time, no mood to study....
wil miss band after i leave....
tot tt b4 i wuld hav been happy wif a silver but really deep down i wanted a gold.. a gold! mmm i was disappointed but din really show it.. but im actualli happy for nj for getting to the top5 well my band members dun really feel tt way hahah cos all of us believe tt nj din deserve it at all anway im stil happy for nj
i hav this crush now on a ger.. cant write down cos charmaine knows my blogsite addy! ahha but yea.. i'll try to win over her and den see how...
din feel well this morning.. maybe cos im tired or stil disapointed
but yea anne got a gold hahah tt's very gold.. mmm hope she do as well in her A level.
i better start praying mann... hav two tests this sat! no time, no mood to study....
wil miss band after i leave....
