I need to harden my resolve.

Some people just think they hav it all

Bloody pissed when i read e blog of someone i know. Wth is his prob? Does he really think he's all that great and being OH SO NOBLE by sacrificing his time for the band? He chose this path, he wants to go all the way, fine, i respect him for that. But, if u choose to do sth, pls do it without thinking about receiving due recognition for its success or even for ur effort.

I don't doubt his efforts, but when it comes to a band, nothing is a one man show. You think you are working alone and doing a one man show? Please, open ur fking eyes, the rest are what? Not doing anything? They are putting in their time, making an effort to come, and then just trying to do sth for the band. Look at it from another point of view, why be someone who chooses to think that the glass is half empty? Why not let it be be half full? People lead their own lives. You have no right to impose ur ideals and visions on others. You are idealistic, tt's gd. Yet you're also blind to the many things that could happen to other individuals. Band might be very high up on ur list of priorities, but to another person, there could be more pressing worries lk studies, projects and even duties in my case.

Understand that we all lead different lives. This could make u happier. Also, realise that you are no longer THE person in charge. They do not come under ur charge anymore. And, oh why bother? Since u're making so much noise over how u feel about the present and the future, since u think the future is bleak, y bother wasting ur efforts?

Teachers, they inspire me

My gp tutor is so helpful! Had a few questions for her and she took out her own time to answer them. Really appreciate it, Ms Tan!

Recently, i've been thinking..

I have a few more career paths that i might wanna pursue, namely, being a prisons officer ( cos it's not dangerous and i'll be lk a mentor ) , a teacher ( lk to get paid to scold others.. joking! seriously i actually lk to teach ) and an accountant.

Which should i go for? I have no idea, but by the end of uni, i hope to figure and also to discover whr my interests lie.

Band concert was a success!

Haha yes and it was worth it. All the leave and off i took, all the stupid extra duties that i had to bear and those "SLACKER" accusations that made me so wanna strangle them. It was worth it man. I liked the way we had fun during the performance. And my juniors, wow, never seen cuter people then them. They really reminded me of myself in the past. And you bet this feeling resonates through the entire alumni. We were all talking about how this and that used to be such, how much things has changed, how some things will always remain the same, blah blah...

I loved it when my juniors called out my name during the performance! haha love them to bits. I just like such things la. It was really cool to hear my name frm up the stage. And those in the alumni seemed shocked tt my name was called. Y cannot? I popular mah! hahaha just didn't expect it at all!

Though the performance wasn't a flawless one, it came through nicely because there was a kinda vibe. Dunno how to describe it, but i think everyone really wanted to do their best. No half hearted effort type of people this time.

I made new frens too, mostly those frm younger batches, but most probably we'll just lose contact.. yet it's been gd this past few weeks. They're all nice pple! Cept for 1 tt I dont care for much. Bah, wont even think of him!

P.s. Thks zz for ur trumpet. It was nicely maintained. =)

4 weeks to clear leave. Yea! And kiss gd bye to duties, camp food and lousy pt.

Smart ass lifeguards

It's a choice?

What's in a choice? You choose from only those that you can chose from. Is this really a choice? Wouldn't it be better to choose sth that you really like but can't achieve presently? This would make a better choice doesn't it?

But I don't. And I know many who don't. There are risks involved. And the heartache that comes will not being able to achieve sth u set off for is not what people like me can bear to go through. Why choose this girl when you really like another girl? Why choose this route when all you dream about is to go the other way? You know why? It's our brain telling us "look, the heart might be right, but trust me, it won't go wrong if you follow me, afterall, I've the smarts"

And so, like obedient soldiers, the brain leads us for most of the time. But the happiest times came when both my brain and heart concur, thus making my choice relatively painless. Yet, this cannot always be the case.

So, do we dare to dream. Or do we just go for that peaceful, already outlined for us kind of life.

Gary's Weather Stone

Real Madrid lost...

And I lost 10 bucks to simo. Was half asleep when the 2nd half started, then bang! Goal! Oops, not my team.. too sleepy to even watch on, argh!

And I just realised something, feb is coming to an end! hahaz

Cos janice's bday party is on the 25th, and it's this sat.. dunno whether I wanna go thr now.. cos of joe la.. pang seh kia..

And with the end of feb, comes march, and then april. April=Clear leave period! WhooHoo! Just thinking about this makes my heart feel so nice, warm and kinda fuzzy. Haha, it's almost as good as talking to someone sweet out thr..

Don't have much to write about these days, cos i'm lk always at home. Will someone pls ask me out? ok?? hahaz

Just slacking at home, sitting in front of this computer with food in my hand and ice cream in my mouth. The ice cream's good, hazelnut flavour.. haha and it's bite-sized so 1 mouth and it's gone.

It's boring to stay at home, but what to do? It's a Sunday and I've got to book into camp tonight, and it can really be a spoiler. Spoils my mood for going out. Imagine "Hey guys, sry but I've got to go hm early today, got to bk in". Blah! It sucks! No mood...

Will also try to go for the next band pract. Gone so long without touching the trumpet, I must really sound lk sheet now, nvm thou, I'll just give it a try. At least it will be Edo conducting so I think it'll be more informal and less stressful.

Happy CNY.. Whr are my angbaos??

The time has come once again for those adults to fill up my pockets with wads of freshly minted erh notes.

Happy Chinese New Yr Dudes and (of cos) Babes!

P.s. I simply love the smell of cny. The crisp smell of notes, the bak kua, the sweets, tibits, and my fav cashew nuts!

nearly buang!

Today, I almost knocked down this motorcyclist. Bloody hell, he just stopped his bike all of a sudden, had to swerve into the next lane in order not to bang into him. Brakes were useless cos it was really too close. I hate driving beside a motocycle man. Lucky I was alert.. and not feeling sleepy, if not, that's it for me. Off to db I go. Fuk that guy, use the hazard lights la, idiot!

thinking and thinking...

What's a spare tire for? It's there for our assurance. We have the tires already, but it's just there in case anything were to happen to the car.

Similarly, in our lives, we have many spare tires. Take me for eg, I applied for 2 places to the 2 unis, and for what? It's for me to feel gd that I can still choose frm the 2 unis. But is this gd? I never did think so, but being practical and everything, I just did it. Simply put, I liked the feeling of having both places.

Some, they choose to apply this principle into their love lives. They might already have someone in their heart, but concurrently, they're still giving another party the false hope that something might just happen. Maybe, it's just us humans. We all like to have back-up plans. When something doesn't go according to plan, we still want to feel gd about ourselves, and so, we get a spare tire. Now, I'm not just talking about myself ok! But it's just that many times over, I've been observing this kinda of stuff happen to friends ard me.

And so, I'm still thinking.. trying to analyse it, but perhaps in a more positive light. Cheers.